Saturday, December 09, 2006

That Was So Last Summer






dear summer,
thinkin about the time i had my first cornrows, went to my first rave that was preform by a top dj, first time seeing the stars and sunset in a single bay, endless weekends of beer,beer and more beer, caring friends which connected in an instant, lots of clubbing and raving, endless activities,cycling with a penta-cycle, i dunno what its called by it can carry 5-6 people at the same time, it all seem like it was just yesterday, my first summer in los angeles. but months before that,i hit the biggest wall in my life, with months of uncertainties of my own future, with the fear of not having control of my own life, tears and depression hit . not knowing was i able to go to school n make a few bucks instead of having 2dollars in my pocket and hoping my dear friends would help me pay for lunch . without knowing any true friends in this new place ..

suddenly from bitter, it turn to one of the sweetest moments in my life . meeting soulmates, travelling places, having fun without a care in the world .. and i appreciate, cherish and living every moment as it goes .. eventually it had to end . i wonder sometimes will those moments like that hit again? total sadness, and suddenly with a rush of rainbows and angels falling out of nowhere, and leaving me again? dont get me wrong i had everything i wish for, a pretty nice girlfriend, a job where i found another good friend, which i never expect in my life, a friend named george aka jorge, a mexican . im going to school, busting my ass for my future . its just that i miss those times when i was broke, and had no friends and all i do was drift on the courts of venice beach alone, its so weird ..

summer 05 ...

5 Comments:

Anonymous caterine said...

you can always go back to that kinda life if you wish...

ppl are too busy to look for what they dun have in their life. Keep looking for something we used to have while keep missing what we currently have... Over and over again, we never learn from the past completely. Life is like a rollercoaster... afta flying couple ups and downs, eventually, we gotta get ourself back to the ground.

when you find youself have excess time to miss the past, that is because your heart is still empty somewhere inside by not filling ur dreams enuff. the future in your mind doesnt excite you to look forward to it and dat's why your eyes never shine. It's important to dream, but, it's far more important to figure out how to make them come true. So, dont sad for the disappearance of the shooting stars, cherish becuz you're able to catch up their most remarkably moments.

"Live as if you were living already for the second time and as if you had acted the first time wrongly as you are about to act now." - by Viktor E. Frankl

Lastly, i got a nice verse from eddie. "Live is about choices. It's not what you are or you aren't. It's what you CHOOSE to be."

9:08 PM  
Anonymous veroniaz said...

Man, that's it! Proud of u. This post brought me the smile .^__^.
it's been raining the whole year, everythings seem not shining anymore. Glad that u're able to shine again. It's important to think right thoughts.Hope u can maintain this spirit within. Hope I didn't get you wrong this time :p

cheerz~

10:39 AM  
Anonymous Stev-o said...

I am glad you still remember Paul, the raver turtle! lolz
I missed those time as much as you do, dawg, those memories are planted in songs like "Blower's Daughter", "Cannon Ball" , "Ordinary People", dygta's "teh koh tam" hitz and all PVD's hits..
the summer of 2 thousand 5~

5:03 PM  
Blogger business voodoo said...

.... kalifornia dreamin' on such a winter's day ....
that's the mama's & the papa's ... its been happenin' in kali for a long time and it won't end any time soon ... remember what the eagles said ...
"you can check out any time you like, but you can never leave" ... so hit big bear, enjoy the snow ... summer comes again and its more alive each year!!!

but yah, the rave scene sure has died down on the west coast ... i like the hotel parties they are having up in the bay area though ... very miami south beach-esque.

peace & harmony,
elaine
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'

12:12 AM  
Anonymous baselnator said...

Hey it's nice to see u met real friends over there, and remember u still have friends back here. Do plan to come back lar.

8:35 PM  

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