That Was So Last Summer

dear summer,
thinkin about the time i had my first cornrows, went to my first rave that was preform by a top dj, first time seeing the stars and sunset in a single bay, endless weekends of beer,beer and more beer, caring friends which connected in an instant, lots of clubbing and raving, endless activities,cycling with a penta-cycle, i dunno what its called by it can carry 5-6 people at the same time, it all seem like it was just yesterday, my first summer in los angeles. but months before that,i hit the biggest wall in my life, with months of uncertainties of my own future, with the fear of not having control of my own life, tears and depression hit . not knowing was i able to go to school n make a few bucks instead of having 2dollars in my pocket and hoping my dear friends would help me pay for lunch . without knowing any true friends in this new place ..

suddenly from bitter, it turn to one of the sweetest moments in my life . meeting soulmates, travelling places, having fun without a care in the world .. and i appreciate, cherish and living every moment as it goes .. eventually it had to end . i wonder sometimes will those moments like that hit again? total sadness, and suddenly with a rush of rainbows and angels falling out of nowhere, and leaving me again? dont get me wrong i had everything i wish for, a pretty nice girlfriend, a job where i found another good friend, which i never expect in my life, a friend named george aka jorge, a mexican . im going to school, busting my ass for my future . its just that i miss those times when i was broke, and had no friends and all i do was drift on the courts of venice beach alone, its so weird ..

summer 05 ...